ahhhhhh

A nice story in the midst of all the suckage.

GO VBAC!!!
BOOOO 'THEY'

Another spin around the sun...

Well, here we are a year later.
Tinkerbell balloon from the boys.
Three new plan toys sets for the doll house.
A reasonable doll from the in-laws.
A beautiful Hannah Andersson dress from my parents.
Cupcakes and spaghetti.
Sparklers and singing...

And now... right now. This moment.
I am sitting here, remembering the last moments before she came, and left.

Right now. She was leaving the house, on a cookie sheet covered with thick terry cloth.
Right now, two years ago... I was too shocked to feel anything.

Right now, today...
I am still a little numb


* new birthday plate, cupcakes in true pre Halloween festive colours.

Surprise, surprise!

Banging my head ....
HARD.

Oh wow!

An OB who dosn't condone homebirth?

I wasn't a very good person in my comment.... wonder if she'll even dare to publish it?

to be perfectly fair... she did so publish it! whoa.....
secondly I was a good person. I didn't demand if the uterine rupture mother had been induced at her suggestion? Or how many iotrogenic c/s's she had caused in her practice so far... or heck, what is her c/s rate? Seeing as she obviously wouldn't dare allow for vbac's after the horrors she has seen!
SNORT.... yeah. I was good. Pat pat pat on the back for me.

Tee hee!

Found a new post up at one of the midwifery blogs I read...
She is now found in a myriad of sites...
This is her newest venture!


Go check her out... my security word was gooppop... how cool is that?

Well then...

Shall we discuss how completely and totally freaked out I am at the moment?
Totally spooked... and I can't pin it on anything!

Or shall we take a trip down memory lane?
Two years ago right now... six-ish months pregnant with md (but didn't know she was a soon to be monster daughter)... hot. OH MY GOD HOT!!! And wet from the shower spray as I tried to lessen to pain of the contractions... and scared and exhilarated and all those fun things when you realize that your friend is about to have her baby immanently.
Getting a towel to wrap her in after deciding the bathtub probably wasn't going to be where she wanted to have said baby... getting her husband away from the Tour de France and oh so excited... so bloody excited I couldn't even remember her address... doesn't everyone know where she lives? yeesh!
*psssst vbac/hbac mamas rule on the pushing thing... always take them by surprise how we kick ass at pushing those babies out!!!
Back to your lives people. I'm going to actually set the alarm system for in the house. I'm so freaked out right now.

Or not... dog, wandering... alarm going off at six in the morning. NOOOOOOO...... I think not.

I really hate politics...

yet... I can't shut up.

An open letter to the party in power right at the moment...
*hey they said in great bold letters
CONTACT US!

Please take a moment when reviewing your health initiatives and realize this brual statistic. Close to one full third of women in Canada are being told that they can not give birth and must subject themselves to surgery in order to deliver their baby. The world health organization indicates that this should fall under 15%. The increase in maternal/fetal complications for surgical birth is undisputed in the medical community. This then has a massive impact on the system for the care of both the mother and infant, the costs are amazing. I will defer the ramifications of the post partum period when a whole host of other issues also impact the new family and medical system. Now take a moment and look at first world/industrialized countries who have midwifery as a primary care for mothers... YOU COULD SAVE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS! As well as saving thousands of women trapped in the system that is all about how dangerous birth is. Many who are seeking midwifery as a viable option, but can not access this crucial service.The report your Honorable Ms. Oswald has been shelving forever. You know the one, take a look. We need to have more midwives. We need to have a training program here, where women wouldn't have to leave their families and support systems to train. It will be too late for me to do it. I have wanted to be a midwife since I was a child and our friend would come for dinner and regale me with homebirth stories..
Please don't let women in this Province down.

I know that it really doesn't matter that our cesarean rate is high.
I know it doesn't matter that all women seeking care can't access midwifery during their pregnancies.
I know it doesn't matter that the midwives we have are burning out and are under incredible stress.
I know it doesn't matter if we have no where to train new midwives.
I know it doesn't matter that this impacts women more than men.
I know that what matters is the amount of votes an issue gets.

As frustrated as I am with the Honorable Ms. Oswalds office... I've lived in Alberta... I will not vote PC.
I wish I could vote for the NDP with the knowledge that my vote meant something. I hope that after reading this... it might.
Please don't let us down.

mm
mother to three
primary cesarean son
second son born at home with competent and superior care of Registered Midwives.
a daughter born at home with the superior care midwives again.

Someone take me out of my misery...

In three hours... I'll be trying to breathe... I'll be setting up the hand outs... I'll be going over the words my co-presenter wrote...
Someone
Kill
Me
NOW!!!!

breathe.... breathe.... breathe....

No, I'm not procrastinating... I'm taking a break from freaking out over having enough information and backing up my words with the right studies...

OHMYGOODNESSI'MSOSCARED!

eep.

And you all thought I'd be so ready for this didn't you?! Yeah, that mom to monsters knows her stuff about caesareans and vbac like the back of her hand...
Lets just say her hand is shaking a bit... not so easy, now is it!

EEEP!!!!!!!